An Honest Look at Lindsay’s Depression

Guest Post by Lindsay of Lee La La.

DISCLAIMER: This post is about Lindsay’s battle with depression and experience with anti-depressants.  We know that depression is a devastating and serious disease, and we are in no way suggesting that what worked for Lindsay will work for you.  Please know that we are sensitive to your personal situation and know that everyone must do what works best for them and those they love–whether that be with medication or not.

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Hi Little Miss Momma friends.

I am Lindsay, the girl behind the blog,

Lee La La

I am a Wife.

I am a so called writer.

I am an occasional crafter.

I am a fashion lover.

It’s nice to meet you!

I am so excited to be here today.

Raw. Vulnerable. Me.

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My story:

What do you do when your life comes crashing down on you?
When you’ve hit rock bottom and are not sure you will ever make it out?
Believe it or not,
this was my reality.

Some of you know a little bit of my story.
For so long, I blocked my past out of my mind.
It wasn’t until I reached my college years,
when it ALL caught up to me.

I began spiraling out of control.
From the outside, I paint a pretty picture.
I let everyone think I was fine, happy, content.
Inside though, I was dying.
Miserable. Unhappy. Lost. Confused.
I shut out my best friends.
I shut out my family.
I searched for love in all the wrong places.
I made bad decisions.
I had no ambition.
I was living a huge lie.

For some they may have sought counseling.

For me, the BEST solution seemed to be medicine.

An anti depressant to be exact.
My doctors believed this would be the answer to all my problems.
“It would get me over this hump”- their exact words.
At the time, I was numb, yet desperate, so I obliged.

Fast forward to May 2007.
The tragic loss of a close friend…
I hit my breaking point.
I wasn’t sure I’d make it out of this one.
So my doctors solution?
Increase your medication.
I obliged.

I became a pro at putting a bandaid on my problems and moving on.

Eventually though, the hurt and pain catches up to you.

Scars begin to show through.

{via here}

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Obviously I found my way out of a deep dark hole.

My life today is more blessed than I ever thought possible.
But you want to know something?
It wasn’t the medicine that got me “over the hump”.
It was A LOT of prayer.
Trusting Jesus.

So for all you that may be struggling in a mountain of darkness,
have faith.
Be patient.
NEVER give up hope.

UPDATE:
I have recently gotten off of this “medication” but it was a daunting task, after being dependent on it for 10 years.
I woke up one day and was determined to free myself from the medicine.
I was tired of feeling emotionless.
I wanted to do LIFE on my own.

The withdrawal symptoms are intense.

Definitely not something they tell you about.

I got through it. Barely, but I did.

Instead of hanging onto pain and suffering, I have learned to hang on HIM to get me through.

“God will never give you more than you can handle”

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Ashley here.
And I just want to say a few quick words about my friend Lindsay.  She is proof that God sends certain people to be in your life at just the right time–Real life people that remind you that you’re not alone with your feelings, your worries, your stresses and your triumphs.  Thanks for being my real friend Linds. Love you.

Lindsay also has a fabulous shop with some of my favorite jewelry ever.
And today she is giving y’all a MONDO discount–like HUGE!
40% OFF

40% OFF anything in the Lee La La shop
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Shop Lee La La here.